Saturday, June 02, 2007
Dis few weeks, i felt lousy....very,very,very....lousy to the max....Dont ask me why?? datz the reason why i did not update my blog for a long time although i have alot of stories to share. Nowadays,i've got mixed feelings...ANGRY,SHOCK,SAD,REMORSE,DOUBTFUL,FRUSTRATION & JEALOUS.And i am stress....I dont feel it but it is stress....Even the doctor confirm dat i am stress...Over wat??? Not sure...Stress..not good for me or everyone else...I have to take it slowly...one at a time...Guys,dont get me wrong...coz wat i am facing here is an overall situation & not focus mainly on my marriage life.So,dont think dat me & hubby is having a problem...**semoga jauhkanlah**Right now,at the point i am writing,i am happy wif my hubby & our marriage...He noes how to take care of me & very loving too....hehehehehe. Dis few weeks,i've tried to do some soul searching....Well,actually,i dont noe how to put in words....Difficult to describe....I juz want to lead a simple life & be happy but watever happened,i accept wif open arms.Meaning, "REDHA ATAS APER YG TERJADI". Its a test for me...to see if i will be able to cope wif my life. Will i be able to cope??? Dat is the question now...If i able to cope, i dont think i'm stress.I feel like shouting...but i cant....I feel like sharing the problems...but i trust no one....yeah no one,not even myself...I feel like ignore & act nothing happen...but i'm not like SOME PEOPLE,ENJOY FIRST & THINK/PLAN FOR WHEN NECESSARY.I feel like telling them off(wif all the vulgar words...)....but i dont want them to think dat i am "KURANG AJAR".But so wat if i am "KURANG AJAR"??? I will not respect them till they really understand wat is the meaning of respect...they are not worth to be respect....But dis is only some parts of my feelings...The other parts were the ones dat is very,very difficult to let out....**haiz**But still, i thank GOD for the love & attention i've get from my family,friends & especially hubby.They are my pillars of strength & becoz of them,i am still alive & kicking...hahahahaa.
Enuff said...too emotional is no good too....coz,it sounds so STRESSFUL...
BERNIKAH TANPA RESTU ORG TUA & DISOKONG OLEH SEDARA-MARA,APER PETANDA TU??ADAKAH IA MASUK DEK AKAL?? SEBAGAI SEDARA-MARA YG LEBIH DEWASA DAN MATANG,TIDAKKAH TANGGUNGJAWAB MENASIHATI LEBIH MULIA DARIPADA MASUK CAMPUR HAL-HAL TERTENTU??? TANGGUNGJAWAB ORG TUA KITA ADALAH UNTUK MENGAJAR DAN MEMBENTUK KITA.TETAPI KALAU SEDARA-MARA DAH MASUK CAMPUR,TERUKLAH....DORANG TAKDE ANAK2 SENDIRI ke??HAI MANUSIA LEBIH SUKA JAGA TEPI KAIN ORG DARI FAMILY SENDIRI. TUTUP HAL SENDIRI TAPI HEBOH HAL ORG LAIN.MUNGKIN DORANG LEBIH SUKA MELIHAT KELUARGA ORG LAIN PORAK PERANDA. TETAPI TAKPE ADER HIKMAH DISEBALIKNYA.YG DERHAKA & TAK MENGAKU KELUARGA AKAN DIHUKUM SEADILNYA....TAPI BAGAIMANA SEDARA-MARA YG SOKONG 100%??
Dunno why i blabber dis out but....THEY ARE REALLY TOO MUCH!!!Dont u think so???
-AWIEJA-
~~hurtbaybie...very,very hepi....awww~~
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